Advent Day 5
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I’ve been learning a lot about psychic senses lately, and it made me a bit sad to realize that at one point I simply stopped training them because all of the negative input I was getting from the people around me.
I would get into trouble for not paying attention, or when I did freaky stuff, like answering things that were not asked out loud, or by being “too blunt” when I would say something that suddenly I just knew and couldn’t explain how.
It made me a bit sad, that survival meant to let go of things like knowing when people is lying because they always were.
Instead of just feeling sad and letting it bring me down, I tried something else. I did a bit of a mixture of self love rituals with shadow working and I let you all the trauma. I cleansed and healed all the things that were no longer true but I still held on to.
I still have mixed feelings, but I got a sense of enjoyment out of things. I got up, made some nice breakfast, got ready. Bought a chocolate for myself as a treat when I did grocery shopping.
Overall, I would say I still have to learn how to deal with things, but for now, I’m just enjoying the moment.
My Chimera Demon Companion was with me during the day
First I was not satisfied with me, but often I have a bad self attitude, too slow, too handicapped too unconcentrated..
Sudden I felt release, like in our Sludge Cleansing
After his working I felt more confident
My health problems.
Some of my other health problems have gotten better. I would like to make the remaining health problems get better.
I made a comment to my sister that day. One that I hadn’t voiced out loud before but it’s one that I’d had thoughts about because of the recent diagnosis I’d had. I don’t know if I’m quite ready to give up on the lifelong dream, but maybe I closer to maybe understanding that the avenue has changed not closed.
I did a mini ritual to remove blockages keeping me from developing the healthy habits I want.
I just sat with the strange flames that seemed to form while I was sitting with what I want to burn. I just let them burn. Whatever I didn’t need, didn’t want, what couldn’t withstand the flames.
an energy that has hounded me forever with biting hateful comments. I caught sight of it, a bony thing with sharp protruding teeth. It likes to hide, masking its energies, so that it appears as though a friend or trusted one is making the sharp/hateful comments, compounding the intending hurt.
I finally caught it& decided, instead of trying to banish it, again, i would bath it, curl its hair and tie pretty ribbons in it. Its response was shock….&. then kind of a quietness. When it reappears & is nasty i grab hold and bath it.
Ive continued with my attentions, gradually becoming more loving. And it is beginning to reveal different aspects of itself. Instead of a ratlike appearance, it grows ‘pretty-ish’ and more doglike. I give it love and watch how it develops. It feels a bit like some aspect of my estranged family. Something of theirs that clings to me. I can continue feeding it negative energy by rejecting it & seemingly contributing to its ill will. Or i can show it love energy, transform it, and watch it sort of blossom. Its original attachment felt really destructive but harnessing it reveals a certain loyalty (that i monitor very closely).
I’m still working on this